Bitter Sweet Moments

Miles,

Today you woke up again at 5a.m. crying sad little whimpers. I tried to let you work it out but 20 minutes later you sounded so frustrated and sad I warmed up a bottle and went to to hold you.

You took a little of the bottle but what you really wanted was to be held. Just to put your head on my shoulder and feel my heart beat. I tried to put you down after your body went limp but you could feel it and griped hard. I gave into it and held you for 45 minutes. I was exhausted but also kinda missed this close time we used to have when you were a newborn.

You woke a few times and snuggled into my nook a bit more. Your tiny fingers gripped the back of my arms and I could hear your breathing change to slow and steady. You kept me warm and I soaked you in. I knew you weren't feeling the best and it made me happy to know that I could give you what you needed to feel better. A soft shoulder and a tight hold.

Here is to a better night sleep for you tonight little man. I love you more oodles than noodles

Kisses,
Mommy